It’s You

She has, she has, she has
Her own reasons for talking to me
She won’t, she won’t, she won’t
Give a damn about what I need

And I can’t tell you why
Because my heart can’t equate it right
Tell me more lies
Because I just can face it for you
It’s you

I will, I will, I will
Cover my scars
I’ll let them bleed
So my silence won’t
Be mistaken for peace
Am I wrong for wanting us to make it?
Tell me more lies
Because i just can face it
It’s you

Could it be that it’s a lesson
That I never had to learn?
I looked at it like a blessing
And now it’s just a curse
I don’t know why

Dichotomy

The moon was briskly kissing the dark sky ,
the stars gazed at it in complete awe ,
the rain had stopped now .

‘ why don’t you come back ? ‘ ,
her voice was shaky ,
her body trembling ,
her face soaked with tears,
you have to let go sometimes ,
love is selfless ,
it is beyond someones ownself ,
beyond you beyond me beyond all ‘ he tried to sound composed .
‘ i dont know about all that ,
for me love is all about you ,
love is being adored by you ,
love is being cheerished by you, .
if me wanting you is selfishness then i am glad to be selfish ‘

she was out of breath , gasping,
silence greeted her from the other side of the phone call,
and it was then she realised,
he was never there and that ,
love was just her mere hallucination.

Halat-e-Waqf

Sajish hai kuch hai Gile se

Har Saasein Khwaish Sile
Muskhilatein Besumaar hai Maula

“Jab na dekha usko kaha ae Maula
Halat-e-waqf karde ae Maula”

Cute Little Girl

Its been long, since my lover, was a guest of mine
and my house was suffused with the glow of wine

I again amass the shards of my heart somehow
Ages since I’ve feasted on her eyelashes now

The demands of decorum cause me great torment
Long past since my collar, in my craziness I rent

Lament longs that from my breath may sparks of fire flow
lts been a while since on a journey, of lights I did go

Love proceeds to console my wounded heart again
While carrying with it quantities of salt for to rub in

The quill of my eyelashes I, dip in my blood anew
For to decorate my vest in the flower’s form and hue

My heart and my eyes are now adversaries again
One seeks to think of her, the other for her sight to gain/

My heart repeatedly repairs to those avenues
Where I will lose all self respect, be subject to abuse

Love once again is eager for a customer to find
Offering up all the wealth of heart, life and mind

My thoughts do flit at every beauty, tulip be or rose
A hundred gardens in my eyes, find easy repose

Again I’d like to unseal the missive from my lover
My life’s forfeit, at the alluring, title on the cover

Desire seeks “that someone” to, out on the terrace be
Her tresses dark, strewn across her face seductively

Wishes want “that someone” to, be face to face with me
The daggers of her lashes honed, by kohl’s ebony

For a youthful beauty ‘gain thirst these eyes of mine
Her face being all ablossom then with the glow of wine

I feel like standing once again at somebody’s gate
Pleading with her sentinel with my head oblat

Trouble, tease me not for I, with the ardour of my tears
Await determined to unleash a storm beyond all fears

“kuchh to majbūriyāñ rahī hoñgī
yuuñ koī bevafā nahīñ hotā”

fight of love

Why couldn’t she understand his love
how much he loved her
She couldn’t recognize him
who was alone on his path

Scary eyes cried while laughing
asking forgiveness for the fantasies, he promised

May Lord be with him
wallowing in the tears due to separation

he had asked for love
she instead gave him pains with a smile
Where should he find himself
he is breathing but then feeling dead

you will remember the writer
when you will face tough times like him

“Yaad aya toh hass dena
Yaad  aya toh hass dena

kyunki tab bhi rooh sirf tere intizaar mai hogi
ki kab meri aashiqi hass de aur jannat naseeb ho”

He Loved with all his Heart.

she had many to live with
she had many to smile with
but then his voice was trembling
but then his heart was mourning

she was broken, so was he
she was smiling,so was he
but then someone said smile when it pains

once she asked him , what fortune did his love had for her,
Scary eyes wet eyes said :

“I HAVE GIVEN IN TO THE SINS OF HER ;
NOW I AM READY FOR MY HELL

Mercy , he begged for his love
Sorry , She said

What fault was his,
“He Couldn’t be Him”

Close your eyes my friend
because darkness isn’t bright enough to kill your pain.

What if she came back,
but then who knew that he had attended his own funeral.

“Dard-e-Ashiq tha , mohtasham thi raaatien
ankho mai thai aanso , jalaan thi dil mai

tum se kitna he pyar ee mehboob
tere pyaar mai toh jagah bhi badal di sajde ki”

If She Knew

she was leaving ,they said
all set to see her,they said
but then where should he wait
all he saw where broken gates

she was scared that devils will whisper his name
he was hurt to open himself because he was the fallen one
Lord mercy his dead soul,because he was in pain
no clan to call in, No friends to dealt upon

If she knew how much he loved
is she knew how much painful it was

“Aap se mohabbat thi , isi liyai waqt ki koi thi na fikr
par jab tu jayai duniya lage azaaab
par jab tu wapas na aayai dil karne laga hisaaab

hoti tujhe pata kitna pyar tha un ankho mai
ki ankho mai he aashq-e-pyar dekhe”

Joy of Pain

where was i leading myself
where i couldn’t see myself
was it you , that i grew as an addict
was it you , i craved for the happiness

those little things counted
those little fantasies counted
those little desires counted
those little memories counted

But then i never knew lord had plans
but then i never knew i was lacking
but then i thought it will end up
this pain ,
this misery
this darkness

“Woh lut-e-uza se mangte gayai
par khuda toh koi aur he tha”

 

Mister

Sun and i look alike
let it go ,if you are right
bounce back to the Drama
no matter what its Karma,

My heart knows no bet
i get it done because my eyes are all wet
follow the light ,
and steep as a star bright.

Sitting Eyes Red Open

i feel crazy up all night
just want to call your name
wondering if i die will i lose the vibe
so i don’t wanna trick the fight

Waqt-e-iqraar toh reh gaya tha
kyun us waqt mai bhi berehmi
kyun us dil mai dard
kar ikraar aur mai marjawo
kar inkaar aur mai marjawo

chale toh thai hum us apna bana’ne
Par bhool gayai hum toh unke kabhi the he nahi.